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i post these like every five mintues i swear anyway. just to let you all know; im actually really better than i ever was. i mean yeah im really depressed half the time, but it isnt that dramatic anymore. i remember in middle school i was the whiniest little shit ever and i thought my life was awful. now it actually i kind of awful, but at least i know it could be worse, and im not like crying about it. the trouble is, i get through big problems way easier than the small ones. im used to big shit making it's way into my life, big fucking deal. i dont even cry about those things. but maybe i'll have a fight with my parents and that will be e

so i've been having bad dreams since like forever and by forever i mean since highschool started which is this year which is practically over in terms of school but yes. the past few days, i have had dreams of my old best friend. our friendship ended horribly thanks to her, and if she ever tried to be friends again i'd probably pee on her. but yeah anyway so i keep having dreams that she is trying to come to my school, and she sees me and tries to be friends, not recognizing me because of my haircut, but for some reason i dont yell at her. i really want to. i feel like im caging in a hurricane by not yelling at her fucked up self, but i ju

Very weird day for me... im sick. i havent been sick in forever. i hate it. my nose is clogged, my throat hurts, my head aches, and i feel very down today... I found my trumpet two nights back, and i decided to bring it to school because i always say how i play instruments, but my friends have never seen me play anything and it'd be funAfter school, they helped me learn the first part of Showtime and that was great ;w; but like, we went into the cafeteria for a little bit so my friend ashley could write down the notes for me, and while she did that I played the first five notes because it sounded pretty. But then all of a sudden i hear this